19 April 2011

sometimes there is just no soft place to land.

The past two months have honestly consisted of NOTHING but obstacles and it has been a knock-down-drag-out-fight for me. The minute I try to pick myself back up again... something else seems to come along and knock me right back down.... sometimes there really is just no soft place to land.

So, let me throw myself a little pity party by letting you in on the obstacles I have faced (in case you have forgotten):

I endured the break up of a 2+ year relationship with a great guy.

I moved out of his house and rented my own apartment.

I was forced to learn how to live alone... and there were things that I enjoyed about that and there were things I did not enjoy at all.

I spent my entire savings account on furniture and miscellaneous things for my new apartment....

Only to be blindsided when I was fired from my job without receiving any explanation for their decision to do so... even when I asked why I was being fired... their response was simply, "I'm sorry. We have to let you go."

I was suddenly jobless with an empty savings account and a newly signed year long lease.

I came down with one of the worst sinus infections I've ever experienced in my life... lost my voice... and for whatever reason - I am still hoarse today.

Due to the stress I've endured this week, I woke up this morning with TWO ginormous cold sores on my mouth. Cold sores tend to be 10 times worse for me - so I took myself to the doctor to get some medicine. Of course, since I no longer work for the State of SC... I no longer have great health insurance. The doctor's visit cost me $75 and the medicine cost me $50. There went my measly final check from the great State of SC!

And, all of these WONDERFUL events have transpired in less than 2 months.

BUT -- I can also throw myself a "I'm pretty blessed" party too:

I have AMAZING family and friends who have given me awesome support.

I found a job that I actually enjoy! The owners are super laid back and give me the freedom to do my job the way I want to do it! Plus - I get to wear scrubs... which are super comfy... and I don't have to worry about picking out my outfit every day.

My hoarse/raspy voice is actually kinda sexy... if I do say so myself! :)

I had a sinus infection - instead of pneumonia or cancer or the bird flu or anything else that could have sucked a lot worse.

I had to learn how to live alone... but I could have had to learn how to live on the streets.

Karma is a tig ole bitty - and those horrible people at my previous place of employment will pay their dues.

Even better than karma... I have a compassionate God who will--and always does--relieve me of every single burden listed above... and He will carry it on His shoulders so that I don't have to... AMEN.

But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient to you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10



"Blessings" - Laura Story

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

‘Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

‘Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home,
It's not our home

‘Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise



8 comments :

  1. You have been knocked down, but it is good to see the blessings you do have. Sometimes those are hard to focus on, but you are! I just know things will start to look up again. Prayers for your mom!

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  2. sorry about ur mom...is the man friend still around?

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  3. You totally have me in tears! So glad that you can see the bright sides of life. I've been where you are, in a place where things just keep knocking you down! It's so hard. Also? Totes jealous of your scrubs-wearing.

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  4. how great are you that while you have all these things going on you still know how to look on the bright side. i can't say that i'd be the same way had been through the same stuff as you.

    if there is anything i can do let me know. i'll be praying for you and your family.

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  6. I'm a new follower and I really enjoy your blog! Your post today just made it even better! I'm always a half empty type person but your post today really made me think and it was very inspirational for when we all get down and have stress.

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  7. You have had one hell of a year, but I'm so happy that you can pick out some positives! Things will get better.

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