22 April 2010

Mother's Day is Coming UP--(What is the secret behind the close bond you share?)

I found this wondeful blog prompt on Mama's Losin' It's blog. I thought it was a wonderful idea. Click on the button below and check it out for yourself.

Mama's Losin' It

My mother and I have not always been as close as we are today. Growing up, I felt inadequate in comparison to my older brother because he is such an amazing person. Nothing my mom said/did caused me to feel this way... it was my own insecurities about myself and my own admiration/jealousy for the traits that he possesses. He is such a smart, caring, spiritual person who has his head on his shoulders and knows what he wants out of life. I am the complete opposite... I learn through making mistakes (many of them)... am forever changing my mind about where I want my life to go (I changed my major 5 times & went to 4 different schools) and always felt I was the "bad black sheep" of the family. I considered myself a "daddy's girl" and was a total brat to my mom throughout high school.

During my senior year in high school... all of that changed. My mom got very sick several different times. The minute I thought I was losing my mother was the minute I realized how much I needed her. I know that is sad to say... and I always loved her... but the simple thought that something might happen to her tore my life apart. I actually had to be the one to help my dad take care of her (my brother was off at school) and it made me realize all of the million things she did for me on a daily basis. It also made me realize how selfish I had been and made me want to share everything with her.

Now, I always say I love you. Every single day. Before, my family wasn't really big on saying it out loud. We just knew that we loved each other. Now, I tell my parents I love them every single time I talk to them. Now, my mom is my best friend. I tell her everything. I am so thankful for her. I don't know how she put up with me all of those bratty years... but I sure am glad she stuck it out and had patience with me and gave me everything she had.

2 comments :

  1. Wow, good for you! Many people don't learn this lesson until much later in life...some never do. How wonderful it is that you can now say I love you. Our family doesn't say it either, ever. I am not sure if I could ever bring myself to...but I need to think about how I can show my appreciation while I still can. Moving post :-)

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  2. I wish I had a better bond with my mother, but she left me too many times growing up. The relationship we share right now is a weak one. I think having a close bond to your mother is important. I have 3 children and I hope that they always feel close to me and know that I am always there for them.

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